Council Christmas party today, pretty fun, spent most of the time in the water but I still can't swim even though Jeremy tried really hard to teach me! I love the pool. It's massive! And the Jacuzzi is totally cool ( Bukakke much?) HAHAHA.

I surprise myself with the amount of energy I have. I attribute this boundless energy to the fact that I hardly do anything all day now. Without council, I have nothing much ( that I like doing) to keep my mind vigilant and body exhausted. It's 3.05 and I do not feel sleepy at all. I spend my days singing Disney and Christmas songs ( karaoke version) on Youtube, including the American national anthem ( Star spangled banner) which i have grown very fond of. However, my parents complained I was wreaking too much havoc ( not in quite so many words), they simply said 'char si lang' ( noisy to death, in Cantonese). Alas, my talent was not appreciated at home. Thus, I had little choice but to select a new hobby. Viwawa. Over the last few days, I've been reduced to sitting stiffy in front of my computer screen playing Zany Bridge, Big 2.5 and Wahjong. What a geek. It's not like I'm even good at those games. I just have nothing better to do and homework doesn't count. However, I must concede that these games have taught me quite a few valuable lessons which I'd like to share with everyone.

From Zany Bridge, I learnt to laugh at myself before anyone else beat me to it. You see, I suck so bad at bridge, I just don't get it. As Princess Mia from the Princess diaries puts it ever so eloquently, '"The concept is grasped, the execution is elusive'' . Hence, it comes as no surprise that I am kicked out of nearly every game. I have endured snide remarks from experienced and cranky players. They detest and belittle 'noobs' like me. Therefore, to prevent myself from getting kicked out, I create my own games and my game titles express subtle dislike at my annoyance at getting kicked out, titles like ' I hate getting kicked out'  ( Ha, ha.... That was meant to be a joke). See that's the lesson I've learnt. Before anyone criticizes me, I admit my flaws by laughing at myself and making a joke out of the situation even though I am fuming with rage and indignation. If this isn't clear enough, I can provide a more direct instance of laughing at myself. Farting. Don't deny it. Nobody believes you.

From Big 2.5, more commonly known as Taiti, I've learnt that it sucks to watch people stronger than you succeed while you 望尘莫及 .(So far behind you can only look at the dust of your opponent) . But, if you play your cards well and manage to expose and overcome your opponents' advantages, you can triumph over the stronger guy. For example, one may not be the smartest bloke around but learn to be exam smart. If you know the English genius in front of you is especially good in one topic, don't be an ass and do the same question. Obviously the examiner will compare standards and you will definitely lag behind. Of course, this is not applicable for every subject, I am merely trying to comfort myself here.

From Wahjong, I've learnt that focusing on winning is more important than focusing on others losing. You see, it gets tiring to think of ploys to prevent your opposition from winning, especially if there are more than one. Rather, all these efforts would be more productive if channeled into devising ideas on how to win instead. To make this more comprehensive, it would be better to study hard and do well than to make the smartest person in your class do poorly.

Anyway, Ashley thinks I'm cute more than I'm pretty. What do you think? I'm really curious. Guy& Girl opinion. Please vote in the comments. Pretty/ cute/ hot/ NONE? THIS POST MUST COMMENT. Anon also can, just say guy/ girl
 

I have had lots of boyfriends and I am glad that most of them did not develop. I was on Facebook stalkering around and I had the biggest fright of my life. This boy, whose name I shall not mention, has long hair. WTF right? Long. Ew. And there were so many people comforting me when I was 'played' by this witless wonder. They told me, 'God has plans for everything', ' you'll find a better guy' etc. etc. At that moment, all seemed bleak, I refused to believe them, although I was grateful for their trying to cheer me up. Today, I conclude that their words of wisdom were undoubtedly accurate. He did not make it big. He is no longer handsome. AND his hair is long. Sheesh. Long hair. Long.

I feel like changing my blog to tumblr/ blogspot. Something new. But I can't bear to cause all my memories reside here.

I don't feel like writing in proper sentences/paragraphs and good vocab/grammar/whatever.

I'm pretty tired and addicted to games on Viwawa which spells my doom because I can't seem to stop. I've had about 10 'last' games of zany bridge and 7 of wahjong. I hate those bridgers online, they call me noob and kick me out. HMPH

War and beauty is the best show ever. I super <3 it. I dunno why but that sounded quite bimbotic.

Anyway, more exciting stuff. Today was THE cliquemas party! I love my clique, can't believe it's been almost a year since we've been in different schools. I still love them as much, all ten of us, even though Ah tan wasn't here today. ):
IJ friends= friends for life. Looking at what some of them( Val, Anne, Lianne, Amanda, Samantha) wrote in my super old p6 autograph books brings back the fondest memories. 'Let's be frenz 4 eva' and stuff along those lines, I'm glad we've kept that promise. (:

Sadly, we didn't camwhore that much today, so much for my false eyelashes ): Anyway, I thought I looked pretty so that's worth it.

Urgh, got to wake up early tomorrow for house meeting and housekeeping matters in the SCC. I think I've got to start on holiday homework soon.

I miss my best friend, Eliza Tan Shi Ru. ):

I'm watching this HongKong serial drama called 'War and beauty'. It speaks of palace politics between concubines. The extent that concubines go to in order to win favour from the emperor is oddly disturbing yet fascinating. Palace politics isn't that far off from what we all deal with in reality. Even in JC, we see that ever so often with scores of people try to win approval by the so-hailed ' Queen bee'. Hmm.. how a fellow human being can have so much control over another never ceases to amaze me. I have absolutely no idea what inspired me to blog about this and I suspect that I am innately, in my deepest unconsciousness very troubled by the rifts that have popped up in my class in CJC. Yes, that's probably the reason, can't attibute it to anything else. I wish I wasn't so judgmental, maybe people would stop judging me too. I think the saying ' whoever bitches to you will bitch about you' is very true. There are probably exceptions like everything else but right now, at this point of time, I feel very strongly about this quotation. I think it's scary when I am almost forced to take sides, I do not want to take sides. But in this situation, it does seem inevitable.
Back to War and beauty. Almost a paradox, don't you think?

Random thoughts running through my head

1. I feel so disconnected from everyone. Fucking sickening.
2. I really hate class politics, why can't everything be the way it was at the start of the year
3. I'm wayyy too free and I have no mood to do holiday homework
4. I have a super bad feeling about orientation
5. I still have to buy presents for my clique, council and for Ashley and I have no idea how I'm gonna get all the money to do that. At least I settled quite a few gifts already. Urgh
5. FML